By nature, I am a perfectionist. I like things just so, particularly in my surroundings. Pictures need to be straight, cushions plumped, surfaces clean and cupboards and drawers tidy. Over the years, I have spent a ridiculous number of hours trying to attain and maintain this level of perfection in my home. Frankly, I've had enough!!
The only trouble is, I don't seem to be able to 'cure' myself of the affliction of perfectionism! I manage to suppress it for a while, sometimes even weeks, but then the feelings of panic come rushing back in and threaten to overwhelm me!
Recently I haven't had either the time or indeed much inclination to clean the house thoroughly. I would normally ALWAYS clean the house from top to bottom, generally on a Monday and then maintain it during the week. However, I've been away, been busy and been poorly over the last three weeks, so I haven't done the whole house. There I was merrily congratulating myself on how well I was coping and half daring to think I had finally turned the corner......Ha Ha!! Of course I havent!! I even dreamt that I was stuck on the edge of a cliff last night with no way off, eventually falling to my certain death in the sea below, waking myself up in the process! I think that may have had more to do with the amount of medicaments I had dosed myself up with last night, but I did wake feeling very close to the edge this morning!
Don't get me wrong, I will always like a clean and comfortable home and it's important to keep a minimum level of organisation BUT I don't want to be a slave to house work forever more. I feel as if my husband humours me (although he definitely has a touch of the obsessive about him!) and my children probably think I'm unnecessarily fussy and I'm even driving myself a bit mad with it!
Do any of you know any helpful tips to help tell my brain that I'm not losing control of my entire life if my house is a little bit untidy!?! I'm not a stupid person, but writing that, I can see how stupid that must sound! I've come on such a long way in de stressing and re evaluating my life since giving up work and I don't want that progress to be eaten away at by my obsession with perfection in my home and being 'in control'.
I am asking my blogging friends for some help and advice.....over to you :)